This is a trial post to test my new signature...
Yes, it actually is.
There is no point arguing or rationalizing, media is all about business.
It's all about profit. It's all about ratings. It's all about raking in the big bucks.
Major networks may argue and say otherwise but in reality, its all business.
Yes, you gather and report the news because you have the duty to do so. But of course, if the news affects your business, you slant it a little. You give the people the information that they need but not because you think that this is your call. Media networks gives the people the information that they need so they could get the loyalty of the people and therefore, get more advertisers.
Really, even print media is no difference.
Advertising matters. Of course, no media network or print media could continue to exist without advertising.
Why do you think the media tends to sensationalize some of their reports? So the people would tune in to their stations or read their papers. The more subscribers, the more advertisers. The more advertisers, the more money.
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There is no point arguing or rationalizing, media is all about business.
It's all about profit. It's all about ratings. It's all about raking in the big bucks.
Major networks may argue and say otherwise but in reality, its all business.
Yes, you gather and report the news because you have the duty to do so. But of course, if the news affects your business, you slant it a little. You give the people the information that they need but not because you think that this is your call. Media networks gives the people the information that they need so they could get the loyalty of the people and therefore, get more advertisers.
Really, even print media is no difference.
Advertising matters. Of course, no media network or print media could continue to exist without advertising.
Why do you think the media tends to sensationalize some of their reports? So the people would tune in to their stations or read their papers. The more subscribers, the more advertisers. The more advertisers, the more money.
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If man can manage to reach the moon when it seemed so impossible, then why can't TN reporters submit articles on time (or just submit an article for that matter)?
I had been checking and rechecking the "news" folders and the articles saved there remain the same. No addition, no change. NOTHING. The ones I assigned to be rewritten remains the same. The ones that were supposed to be updated, remains the same.
Why? I am sure it's not because its the finals week. Those articles were assigned to them weeks, even a month, before and still nothing.
Am I asking for the impossible? I am not asking for them to go to the moon or find the lost city of Atlantis. I am not asking them to climb Mt. Everest or demolish the school. All I'm asking for is that they pass the articles assigned to them. Is that impossible? Is that too much to ask?
The school year is ending and we will be on our last issue already yet, the "lost" articles remain lost. And these people are supposedly the future leaders of this organization...phew!
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I had been checking and rechecking the "news" folders and the articles saved there remain the same. No addition, no change. NOTHING. The ones I assigned to be rewritten remains the same. The ones that were supposed to be updated, remains the same.
Why? I am sure it's not because its the finals week. Those articles were assigned to them weeks, even a month, before and still nothing.
Am I asking for the impossible? I am not asking for them to go to the moon or find the lost city of Atlantis. I am not asking them to climb Mt. Everest or demolish the school. All I'm asking for is that they pass the articles assigned to them. Is that impossible? Is that too much to ask?
The school year is ending and we will be on our last issue already yet, the "lost" articles remain lost. And these people are supposedly the future leaders of this organization...phew!
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Nothing is constant, everything changes.
and tomorrow, a very significant change will happen. A change that will determine the future of the publication.
Another year has passed and a lot of things have happened which tested the publications resolve. We had been berated with criticisms and that is with a reason. In a way, we have failed in our duty to be the voice of the students. We did not reach our usual number of issues. When we used to have 30 plus issues, now we did not even reach 15.
I will not rationalize on the reasons and I will not even try to defend the publication because this is not the purpose of this post.
Tomorrow, is the Editorial Board Election and a new set of leaders will be chosen by the staff. Then a new year will begin.
I don't know what to expect and I don't even want to expect.
For weeks now I had been thinking about the election and I am, to be honest about it, scared. I am not concerned about my position because the staff can choose whoever they want to take my place and it will not affect me at all. I wouldn't care less if I would have to leave my position.
What I am most worried about is that, I can't see anybody who is responsible enough to lead the publication. For the one year that I had become their editor, I think I am in the position to assess them.
They are good writers. That, I am confident. But the problem is that, they have the habit of lapsing into a mild case of irresponsibility. Sometimes, they tend to forget about their duties in the publication. They also have the habit of making excuses, very lame excuses. they don't observe deadlines, they don't follow rules, and they don't care if you give them a warning.
Are they prepared to lead the publication?
Leading the publication is different from leading a regular student organization. Leading the publication is different from leading a group in a class project.
When you are an editor, you are an editor 24 hours a day/7 days a week. You have to be on call 24/7 and be ready even if you are not yet ready. You don't cease to be an editor even when you are on break. You have to be willing to sacrifice a lot of things, even those things you don't want to sacrifice.
But if they refuse to do the simple tasks that they are told to do, if they are already irresponsible with the small things, will they be responsible enough to take their places and lead the publication? I hope so.
Even if the present editorial board will remain, even if nobody will graduate or leave, sooner or later they will have to lead the publication. We will not be here forever and whether they like it or not they have to be prepared when the time comes.
We were not prepared when we assumed our positions. We were not prepared when we were chosen to lead. Now, it's their time. With all the problems the publication is facing now, we need not only good leaders but responsible and brave ones. Brave enough to face the storms of the coming year.
So, help us God.
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and tomorrow, a very significant change will happen. A change that will determine the future of the publication.
Another year has passed and a lot of things have happened which tested the publications resolve. We had been berated with criticisms and that is with a reason. In a way, we have failed in our duty to be the voice of the students. We did not reach our usual number of issues. When we used to have 30 plus issues, now we did not even reach 15.
I will not rationalize on the reasons and I will not even try to defend the publication because this is not the purpose of this post.
Tomorrow, is the Editorial Board Election and a new set of leaders will be chosen by the staff. Then a new year will begin.
I don't know what to expect and I don't even want to expect.
For weeks now I had been thinking about the election and I am, to be honest about it, scared. I am not concerned about my position because the staff can choose whoever they want to take my place and it will not affect me at all. I wouldn't care less if I would have to leave my position.
What I am most worried about is that, I can't see anybody who is responsible enough to lead the publication. For the one year that I had become their editor, I think I am in the position to assess them.
They are good writers. That, I am confident. But the problem is that, they have the habit of lapsing into a mild case of irresponsibility. Sometimes, they tend to forget about their duties in the publication. They also have the habit of making excuses, very lame excuses. they don't observe deadlines, they don't follow rules, and they don't care if you give them a warning.
Are they prepared to lead the publication?
Leading the publication is different from leading a regular student organization. Leading the publication is different from leading a group in a class project.
When you are an editor, you are an editor 24 hours a day/7 days a week. You have to be on call 24/7 and be ready even if you are not yet ready. You don't cease to be an editor even when you are on break. You have to be willing to sacrifice a lot of things, even those things you don't want to sacrifice.
But if they refuse to do the simple tasks that they are told to do, if they are already irresponsible with the small things, will they be responsible enough to take their places and lead the publication? I hope so.
Even if the present editorial board will remain, even if nobody will graduate or leave, sooner or later they will have to lead the publication. We will not be here forever and whether they like it or not they have to be prepared when the time comes.
We were not prepared when we assumed our positions. We were not prepared when we were chosen to lead. Now, it's their time. With all the problems the publication is facing now, we need not only good leaders but responsible and brave ones. Brave enough to face the storms of the coming year.
So, help us God.
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There is a reason why we write about something. There is a reason why we write about what we write. We at the student publication do not just write a piece just so we could have something to publish. We don't write so we could ruin somebody, especially when we don't really have a reason to.
We write about issues because it affects the students. We write about issues because people complains. We write because it is our duty to write.
If you don't want to see your name published in the newspaper, then don't give us a reason to. If you don't want people to think bad of you, then don't give them a reason to.
And just a piece of advice: when you are asked a question, answer it honestly so you don't get confused with your own lies. If you want to make excuses, polish it well because once it is printed you can hardly take it back.
When you are given the chance to answer and give your side of the issue, grab the opportunity and explain your side well. Don't just mutter in a corner and complain after the issue is published.
Back-stabbing us and grumbling will not do you any good.
We write about issues because it affects the students. We write about issues because people complains. We write because it is our duty to write.
If you don't want to see your name published in the newspaper, then don't give us a reason to. If you don't want people to think bad of you, then don't give them a reason to.
And just a piece of advice: when you are asked a question, answer it honestly so you don't get confused with your own lies. If you want to make excuses, polish it well because once it is printed you can hardly take it back.
When you are given the chance to answer and give your side of the issue, grab the opportunity and explain your side well. Don't just mutter in a corner and complain after the issue is published.
Back-stabbing us and grumbling will not do you any good.
There is no question about it; the media is always adversarial to the government. Government does not only mean public officials and the administration. Being adversarial to the government” means that the media is adversarial with everything that represent the government.
They say that the media is a watchdog; guardians of the public trust. The media is seen as the eyes, ears and voice of the common tao.
The media plays a great role in influencing the people. What the media says, the people believe. It is therefore important that the media ensures the accuracy of whatever information it gives to the people because the media could make or break a nation.
The extent of the media’s power over the people is immeasurable. It influences not only the day to day life of every individual but it also influences policies and laws. Almost everything that we do today is influenced or dictated by the media; from the clothes that we wear to the opinions that we formulate. Everything is affected.
It is often said, and observed, that the media only reports the wrongdoings of the people in the government but not the good things that they have done. Perhaps it comes from the thought that the media, as watchdogs, exists to ensure that people in government do not abuse the power that they have. Or perhaps it also comes from the thought that to do well and to serve the people are the duties of the government and is not therefore needed to be published.
But I sometimes ask myself if it is indeed wise to do so. Observing the effects of what the people see in TV, hear in radios and read in newspapers (or the internet), I personally think that it is not.
The people have lost its trust to the government and everything that represents it and the media has played a major role in this.
I, of course, am for the media. But this does not mean that I will close my eyes from the apparent mistakes that our kind is committing.
Yes, I consider it a mistake that the media is always against the government. Yes, I consider it a mistake that media reportage only often covers the offenses made by the government. Why? I consider it a mistake because this kind of reportage is actually dividing the nation. Its sets the people against their leaders; it creates despair and hopelessness, it breeds distrust.
Yes, the media exposes the shortcomings of the people elected to serve and lead the Filipino nation yet it also inadvertently paints an image of a government that could never do right for the people it promises to serve and protect. The constant beatings that the government gets from the media makes the people think that people in the government sits all day and does not do anything good at all.
In a way, we have poisoned the minds of the people. In a way, we have caused the division of the Filipino nation. We are the reason why the people refused to acknowledge the good things that the government has done because what they always see are the transgressions committed by public officials and government employees.
The media of course aims to ensure that the people are updated with whatever matter is happening in the government, especially matters of great public concern. By making the people aware of what is happening in the government and the society we make the people vigilant with their rights.
We aim well. But in our attempt to fulfill our duties as vanguards we forget that what the people often see is more important than what the truth really is.
It is true that the government and its people commits a lot of transgressions but it is also true that the government has also done good things for the people. But only a very few of these things are made known to the public.
Maybe it is too late to change everything now. But then again, maybe it’s not. Maybe we can still make a difference. Maybe we can still do something about this.
Then again, only time can tell.
They say that the media is a watchdog; guardians of the public trust. The media is seen as the eyes, ears and voice of the common tao.
The media plays a great role in influencing the people. What the media says, the people believe. It is therefore important that the media ensures the accuracy of whatever information it gives to the people because the media could make or break a nation.
The extent of the media’s power over the people is immeasurable. It influences not only the day to day life of every individual but it also influences policies and laws. Almost everything that we do today is influenced or dictated by the media; from the clothes that we wear to the opinions that we formulate. Everything is affected.
It is often said, and observed, that the media only reports the wrongdoings of the people in the government but not the good things that they have done. Perhaps it comes from the thought that the media, as watchdogs, exists to ensure that people in government do not abuse the power that they have. Or perhaps it also comes from the thought that to do well and to serve the people are the duties of the government and is not therefore needed to be published.
But I sometimes ask myself if it is indeed wise to do so. Observing the effects of what the people see in TV, hear in radios and read in newspapers (or the internet), I personally think that it is not.
The people have lost its trust to the government and everything that represents it and the media has played a major role in this.
I, of course, am for the media. But this does not mean that I will close my eyes from the apparent mistakes that our kind is committing.
Yes, I consider it a mistake that the media is always against the government. Yes, I consider it a mistake that media reportage only often covers the offenses made by the government. Why? I consider it a mistake because this kind of reportage is actually dividing the nation. Its sets the people against their leaders; it creates despair and hopelessness, it breeds distrust.
Yes, the media exposes the shortcomings of the people elected to serve and lead the Filipino nation yet it also inadvertently paints an image of a government that could never do right for the people it promises to serve and protect. The constant beatings that the government gets from the media makes the people think that people in the government sits all day and does not do anything good at all.
In a way, we have poisoned the minds of the people. In a way, we have caused the division of the Filipino nation. We are the reason why the people refused to acknowledge the good things that the government has done because what they always see are the transgressions committed by public officials and government employees.
The media of course aims to ensure that the people are updated with whatever matter is happening in the government, especially matters of great public concern. By making the people aware of what is happening in the government and the society we make the people vigilant with their rights.
We aim well. But in our attempt to fulfill our duties as vanguards we forget that what the people often see is more important than what the truth really is.
It is true that the government and its people commits a lot of transgressions but it is also true that the government has also done good things for the people. But only a very few of these things are made known to the public.
Maybe it is too late to change everything now. But then again, maybe it’s not. Maybe we can still make a difference. Maybe we can still do something about this.
Then again, only time can tell.
I never liked leadership positions. I never liked it when I have to lead people or whenever I am put in charge of something. I never liked responsibility not because I'm irresponsible but because I know I can never fulfill it.
Responsibility is commitment. To take responsibility, to accept it is to commit. To commit, for me, is to fail.
Why? Because I've never been a good decision maker and I've never been a good leader. I know I am not a good leader. I lack the capabilities. I lack the skills. I lack the essential elements to become an effective leader.
For one, I can be hard and mean when I am given the authority. I want a system, I want order, I want discipline. I want rules to be followed and I want to impose whatever punishment is necessary when the rules are violated. This I do, please take note, without any emotional attachment at all.
I guess I never had the head nor the heart of a leader.
I am not compassionate. I am not even emotional.
I am ruthless. I am cruel. I am demanding.
Would you want me to lead you?
Certainly not.
I hate being a leader because oftentimes, I hurt the people I cared for the most in my attempt to fulfill my duty and impose discipline. Why is it that when you want everything to go as it should, when you want so bad to have order and discipline, you hurt a lot of people in the process?
Sometimes, without meaning to, you step on people so you could enforce what you think is right. Sometimes, you have to hurt those you love just so the group could achieve its goal.
Sometimes, you have to let go of the people who has been very important to you because you know that they have be let go in order for the organization to be effective.
When you are a leader, you have to make grave decisions. Sometimes, the people around you do not understand why you have to or why they have to follow. Sometimes, you don't even know if you really have to but you have to go on because you don't know what else to do.
Most of the times, I don't know what I'm doing. Most of the times, I don't know if letting them is more effective than reprimanding them. And a lot of times I find myself wondering that maybe hanging them is really the most effective option of all.
When you're a leader, you have to be tough even when you are feeling weak. When you're a leader you have to be smart even if you are not. When you're a leader you have to be good even if you don't know how.
I don't know how to lead. Many times I've been made a leader and many times I tried to be a good leader but always, I fail.
I don't know how to lead because I don't know how to follow.
The irony of it is that, I want the rules followed when I don't even like rules myself.
Rules are like prison bars to me. I never liked it but I have to follow and I always think that nothing could ever go wrong if only people will follow the rules (myself included).
I don''t like being a leader because I am not sure I was ever meant to be.
Responsibility is commitment. To take responsibility, to accept it is to commit. To commit, for me, is to fail.
Why? Because I've never been a good decision maker and I've never been a good leader. I know I am not a good leader. I lack the capabilities. I lack the skills. I lack the essential elements to become an effective leader.
For one, I can be hard and mean when I am given the authority. I want a system, I want order, I want discipline. I want rules to be followed and I want to impose whatever punishment is necessary when the rules are violated. This I do, please take note, without any emotional attachment at all.
I guess I never had the head nor the heart of a leader.
I am not compassionate. I am not even emotional.
I am ruthless. I am cruel. I am demanding.
Would you want me to lead you?
Certainly not.
I hate being a leader because oftentimes, I hurt the people I cared for the most in my attempt to fulfill my duty and impose discipline. Why is it that when you want everything to go as it should, when you want so bad to have order and discipline, you hurt a lot of people in the process?
Sometimes, without meaning to, you step on people so you could enforce what you think is right. Sometimes, you have to hurt those you love just so the group could achieve its goal.
Sometimes, you have to let go of the people who has been very important to you because you know that they have be let go in order for the organization to be effective.
When you are a leader, you have to make grave decisions. Sometimes, the people around you do not understand why you have to or why they have to follow. Sometimes, you don't even know if you really have to but you have to go on because you don't know what else to do.
Most of the times, I don't know what I'm doing. Most of the times, I don't know if letting them is more effective than reprimanding them. And a lot of times I find myself wondering that maybe hanging them is really the most effective option of all.
When you're a leader, you have to be tough even when you are feeling weak. When you're a leader you have to be smart even if you are not. When you're a leader you have to be good even if you don't know how.
I don't know how to lead. Many times I've been made a leader and many times I tried to be a good leader but always, I fail.
I don't know how to lead because I don't know how to follow.
The irony of it is that, I want the rules followed when I don't even like rules myself.
Rules are like prison bars to me. I never liked it but I have to follow and I always think that nothing could ever go wrong if only people will follow the rules (myself included).
I don''t like being a leader because I am not sure I was ever meant to be.
The past. Sweet and bitter.
But still worth remembering.
I was hesitant when I first applied in the publication. I imagined the staff to be a bunch of elitist and imagined myself out of place or out of their league.
But all my fears were instantly banished the moment I joined the publication. The staff were not the kind of people I expect them to be. Life in the publication was never dull. Laughter and jokes are as frequent as pressure and reprimands.
My life would have been different if I did not join the publication, this I am sure.
There would have been no responsibilities, no deadlines, no pressure. Just a care-free student life with the usual ups and downs.
But my life would not have been worth living if I did not.
There would be no friends to laugh with, to cry with, to argue with.
There would be no family to support, to take care, to love.
Being alone in a place far from my family, the publication served a home to me; the staff, my family. What would my life be without TN? I can't even imagine. I never really have a life outside the publication. I never had any close friends outside the publication. I never really had anybody I am very much comfortable with outside the publication.
Yes, I have my coursemates. Yes, I have my classmates.
But, to be honest about it, I will always choose my TN Family over them.
I don't know them that much, or as much as I've known the people in the publication.
I was never really close to them and if I ever was, only to a very few.
It is important to me that I am accepted and the acceptance I get from the people in the publication is the kind of acceptance that I had always longed for; unconditional.
Here, I could excel and still keep my feet on the ground. Here, I could commit mistakes and be forgiven. Here, I could be myself and still be accepted. Here, I could laugh (and cry), grumble and shout and people never cease to care. Here, you can be somebody or a nobody and still it wouldn't matter.
It doesn't matter how many years you stay in the publication. It doesn't matter if you do and leave. It doesn't matter how long you're gone.
Nobody ever leaves TN. I doubt if anybody ever could. Once a member of TN, always a part of TN. No matter where you go or how far you've reached, your heart will always be with TN and the TN family will always be a part of your life no matter what happens.
TN is not just a publication. TN is us.
TN is more than just an organization. TN is a family.
and to those who left, TN is more than a memory.
Because TN lives in our hearts.
But still worth remembering.
I was hesitant when I first applied in the publication. I imagined the staff to be a bunch of elitist and imagined myself out of place or out of their league.
But all my fears were instantly banished the moment I joined the publication. The staff were not the kind of people I expect them to be. Life in the publication was never dull. Laughter and jokes are as frequent as pressure and reprimands.
My life would have been different if I did not join the publication, this I am sure.
There would have been no responsibilities, no deadlines, no pressure. Just a care-free student life with the usual ups and downs.
But my life would not have been worth living if I did not.
There would be no friends to laugh with, to cry with, to argue with.
There would be no family to support, to take care, to love.
Being alone in a place far from my family, the publication served a home to me; the staff, my family. What would my life be without TN? I can't even imagine. I never really have a life outside the publication. I never had any close friends outside the publication. I never really had anybody I am very much comfortable with outside the publication.
Yes, I have my coursemates. Yes, I have my classmates.
But, to be honest about it, I will always choose my TN Family over them.
I don't know them that much, or as much as I've known the people in the publication.
I was never really close to them and if I ever was, only to a very few.
It is important to me that I am accepted and the acceptance I get from the people in the publication is the kind of acceptance that I had always longed for; unconditional.
Here, I could excel and still keep my feet on the ground. Here, I could commit mistakes and be forgiven. Here, I could be myself and still be accepted. Here, I could laugh (and cry), grumble and shout and people never cease to care. Here, you can be somebody or a nobody and still it wouldn't matter.
It doesn't matter how many years you stay in the publication. It doesn't matter if you do and leave. It doesn't matter how long you're gone.
Nobody ever leaves TN. I doubt if anybody ever could. Once a member of TN, always a part of TN. No matter where you go or how far you've reached, your heart will always be with TN and the TN family will always be a part of your life no matter what happens.
TN is not just a publication. TN is us.
TN is more than just an organization. TN is a family.
and to those who left, TN is more than a memory.
Because TN lives in our hearts.
A cup of coffee(or in my case, milk). A cup of noodles (optional).
An armory of load (optional but highly advisable).
I had been staying overnight for how many days now and because I don't get enough sleep, I have to load myself with all the food I could get.
I stayed overnight not only for editing purposes but because I have to convert our videos from dvd to WMV. We will be starting the video editing today and it is important that I finish converting the videos and see that it is fit for editing.
But because I am so busy with the conversion, I am not able to edit anything for the publication. I can't even remember when was the last time I checked the folder for articles. Maybe Friday or Saturday, I'm not really sure.
In times like this, I find myself wishing that I would be just like any other student. You know, just attend my classes, pass my assignments, submit projects, go home, eat, sleep and so on. I am always busy that I don't even get enough sleep.
Of course, with my present schedule, I could sleep during daytime but then, sleeping at night is a lot different from sleeping at daytime. You are more rested at night than during daytime.
Honestly, I miss my bed already. I miss the nights I sleep in it. I miss my pillows and my blanket. I miss the comforts of sleep.
But what can I Do?
I'm just a student with deadlines to beat.
I am just an editor with reports to edit.
An armory of load (optional but highly advisable).
"Para sa iba, ang kape, pampainit lang sa sikmura.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Para sa iba, ang noodles, pang snacks lang.
Para sa amin, ang kape (at gatas) ay buhay. Pampagising sa mga gabing halos hindi na maimulat ang mga mata sa antok; pampalakas sa mga gabing kinakailangan ng takutin ang sarili para kumilos.
Ang noodles, siyempre, paborito ng estudyante. Madaling lutuin, mabilis makain, at mura.
Pumapawi sa gutom; nagbibigay buhay sa nakakagutom at nakakapanghinang trabaho."
I had been staying overnight for how many days now and because I don't get enough sleep, I have to load myself with all the food I could get.
I stayed overnight not only for editing purposes but because I have to convert our videos from dvd to WMV. We will be starting the video editing today and it is important that I finish converting the videos and see that it is fit for editing.
But because I am so busy with the conversion, I am not able to edit anything for the publication. I can't even remember when was the last time I checked the folder for articles. Maybe Friday or Saturday, I'm not really sure.
In times like this, I find myself wishing that I would be just like any other student. You know, just attend my classes, pass my assignments, submit projects, go home, eat, sleep and so on. I am always busy that I don't even get enough sleep.
Of course, with my present schedule, I could sleep during daytime but then, sleeping at night is a lot different from sleeping at daytime. You are more rested at night than during daytime.
Honestly, I miss my bed already. I miss the nights I sleep in it. I miss my pillows and my blanket. I miss the comforts of sleep.
But what can I Do?
I'm just a student with deadlines to beat.
I am just an editor with reports to edit.
I am human; I get hurt, I get tired.
I don't pretend to be invincible or hyperactive. I don't pretend that I could go on for days without sleep or even pretend that I can do anything in this world.
I am just a human being. I have limitations.
I can't always do everything and most of the time, I don't even know what I am doing.
There are times when I am unsure with what to do but I have to go on and do it anyway. Most often, I am left with no choice. Or to be more precise, I have a choice but I am not given the option to choose.
Sometimes, I hate it when people demands a lot of things from me. I hate it when people relies everything on me. Its like, you're always the one being called when there are others who can do the job; its like being on-call 24/7. I hate it when I have to do everything while the rest of the people around me simply smiles, pats my back and say "okay lang yan, kaya mo naman eh"...
Are you sure? How do know that I can really do it?
Its flattering to think that people trusts you that much but its also agonizing to think that they don't know anything at all. They all expect you to do something and expects you to do best without even considering that you might not know exactly what to do at all.
Nobody ever asked me "kaya mo ba?" or "kaya mo pa?"
Nobody ever asked me if I wanted to do a task or not.
Nobody. Not my teachers, not my friends, not my classmates, not my family.
People always expects you to accomplish everything they ask you to do and blames you if you don't. Its easy to say that you can do it but its really hard to prove.
Sometimes you have no choice but to say okay even if its not. Why? Because nobody will do the job anyway. They smile at you, pats you back, say something "encouraging" and the leave you alone. They never had any idea how much you're dying to just say no or that when you say "no" you actually mean it.
Haven't they realized that all of us are humans? Haven't they all realized that we can't do everything in this world? Haven't they ever thought that our capability is sometimes lesser than their expectations?
Its easy to expect so much that the work will be done when you are not the one doing it. Of course, how could it be hard when you only have to sit in a corner and watch the people around you do the job? But of course its hard for those who has to do it.
They say you can't measure your full potential unless you are placed in intense pressure and stretched to the point of breaking. Maybe. But I hope they be gentle when they stretch me, because I am not as elastic as they expect.
I am human. We all are.
We have limitations. And so are others.
We get tired. They do too.
Stop passing the job to others.
If you think its easy enough, the you do it yourself!
I don't pretend to be invincible or hyperactive. I don't pretend that I could go on for days without sleep or even pretend that I can do anything in this world.
I am just a human being. I have limitations.
I can't always do everything and most of the time, I don't even know what I am doing.
There are times when I am unsure with what to do but I have to go on and do it anyway. Most often, I am left with no choice. Or to be more precise, I have a choice but I am not given the option to choose.
Sometimes, I hate it when people demands a lot of things from me. I hate it when people relies everything on me. Its like, you're always the one being called when there are others who can do the job; its like being on-call 24/7. I hate it when I have to do everything while the rest of the people around me simply smiles, pats my back and say "okay lang yan, kaya mo naman eh"...
Are you sure? How do know that I can really do it?
Its flattering to think that people trusts you that much but its also agonizing to think that they don't know anything at all. They all expect you to do something and expects you to do best without even considering that you might not know exactly what to do at all.
Nobody ever asked me "kaya mo ba?" or "kaya mo pa?"
Nobody ever asked me if I wanted to do a task or not.
Nobody. Not my teachers, not my friends, not my classmates, not my family.
People always expects you to accomplish everything they ask you to do and blames you if you don't. Its easy to say that you can do it but its really hard to prove.
Sometimes you have no choice but to say okay even if its not. Why? Because nobody will do the job anyway. They smile at you, pats you back, say something "encouraging" and the leave you alone. They never had any idea how much you're dying to just say no or that when you say "no" you actually mean it.
Haven't they realized that all of us are humans? Haven't they all realized that we can't do everything in this world? Haven't they ever thought that our capability is sometimes lesser than their expectations?
Its easy to expect so much that the work will be done when you are not the one doing it. Of course, how could it be hard when you only have to sit in a corner and watch the people around you do the job? But of course its hard for those who has to do it.
They say you can't measure your full potential unless you are placed in intense pressure and stretched to the point of breaking. Maybe. But I hope they be gentle when they stretch me, because I am not as elastic as they expect.
I am human. We all are.
We have limitations. And so are others.
We get tired. They do too.
Stop passing the job to others.
If you think its easy enough, the you do it yourself!
I'm like a vampire. Almost all of us are.
Awake at night. Asleep during daytime. Or at least, an hour or two during daytime.
I've been spending overnights since Monday last week and only skipped a night last Wednesday. Never really got enough sleep and my head is already aching so bad. Never got the time to actually sleep well the past days because we had to shoot for our short Film and to edit our videos.
Ang hirap maging sikat...hehehe!
We had our last night for editing last night and I just woke up. Missed interviewing with my classmates because I overslept. I went home at past 6am and slept until 11am...whew! The longest for this week!
Thank you Lord!
Awake at night. Asleep during daytime. Or at least, an hour or two during daytime.
I've been spending overnights since Monday last week and only skipped a night last Wednesday. Never really got enough sleep and my head is already aching so bad. Never got the time to actually sleep well the past days because we had to shoot for our short Film and to edit our videos.
Ang hirap maging sikat...hehehe!
We had our last night for editing last night and I just woke up. Missed interviewing with my classmates because I overslept. I went home at past 6am and slept until 11am...whew! The longest for this week!
Thank you Lord!
Endless overnights. Long, long overnights.
Aside from the constant harassment and threats we get from the people around, one of the things that is constant in our lives in the publication is the overnight.
Because we are all students and has to, obviously, attend to our academics during daytime, we often do our works in the publication at night. We stay in the office and encode our reports or edit or layout, and sometimes, we stay overnight in the office just because we like it. We seldom sleep in our own beds that our housemates find it puzzling if they see us at home at night.
Of course, nobody is forced to stay awake the whole night. We do have sleeping mats in the office where you could catch a few naps side by side with anybody who happens to have the same plan as you. And I mean it when I say anybody. In the organization, it doesn't matter who is lying beside you when you sleep because malice has no place in here. Like what we always say, we are all brothers and sisters here.
We also have plenty of coffee in the office for those coffee addicts who just can't live a day with out coffee. You can stay awake the whole night, drink all the coffee (just don't blame us if something happens to you), sleep all you want or face the computer and do whatever it is that you do in front of the computer.
Because we are a weekly student publication, overnights are held almost always. If the deadline for the submission of reports is on Tuesday, then editing starts on Wednesday and usually lasts for two days or three at the most depending on the number of reports. Of course, Lay outing of the paper follows usually by friday or Saturday. The paper will then be passed to the printer either Saturday or Monday morning. Of course this means that, for editors, we have to stay overnight starting Wednesday night until the newspaper is released either Monday or Tuesday.
There are also times when we have to print six-page or eight-page issues and the newspaper has to be folded by the staff. This means another sleepless, back-breaking night.
So if you will analyze it carefully, if we would really follow this order we could only sleep normally on Sundays, Mondays and Tuesdays. Of course there are times when we have to skip the three-night luxury because we have to finish our projects or assignments.
How's that for a schedule?
Despite its unappealing reality, overnight is one of the greatest things in TN. Overnights does not only allow us to finish our jobs and fulfill our duties but it also allows us to know each one of us better. Its one great bonding moment where anything could just happen. Every overnight is an experience to remember.
Overnights are usually fun-filled nights full of laughter and enjoyment. While working of course. Missing one overnight is like missing half of your life. A lot of things could really happen and not being there could really send a pang of regret to your stomach.
Tiring it may seem but this is one activity in the publication that very few would want to miss. You will hate it at first but it could grow on you and before you know it, you don't want to go home anymore. Who would want to when you could have a fully airconditioned and internet connected slumberland complete with music, television and many other forms of entertainment (provided by the staff of course)?
Honestly, I wouldn't trade overnights for the world's most comfortable bed. Losing sleep is worth it when you are with the people you love and makes you happy.
Aside from the constant harassment and threats we get from the people around, one of the things that is constant in our lives in the publication is the overnight.
Because we are all students and has to, obviously, attend to our academics during daytime, we often do our works in the publication at night. We stay in the office and encode our reports or edit or layout, and sometimes, we stay overnight in the office just because we like it. We seldom sleep in our own beds that our housemates find it puzzling if they see us at home at night.
Of course, nobody is forced to stay awake the whole night. We do have sleeping mats in the office where you could catch a few naps side by side with anybody who happens to have the same plan as you. And I mean it when I say anybody. In the organization, it doesn't matter who is lying beside you when you sleep because malice has no place in here. Like what we always say, we are all brothers and sisters here.
We also have plenty of coffee in the office for those coffee addicts who just can't live a day with out coffee. You can stay awake the whole night, drink all the coffee (just don't blame us if something happens to you), sleep all you want or face the computer and do whatever it is that you do in front of the computer.
Because we are a weekly student publication, overnights are held almost always. If the deadline for the submission of reports is on Tuesday, then editing starts on Wednesday and usually lasts for two days or three at the most depending on the number of reports. Of course, Lay outing of the paper follows usually by friday or Saturday. The paper will then be passed to the printer either Saturday or Monday morning. Of course this means that, for editors, we have to stay overnight starting Wednesday night until the newspaper is released either Monday or Tuesday.
There are also times when we have to print six-page or eight-page issues and the newspaper has to be folded by the staff. This means another sleepless, back-breaking night.
So if you will analyze it carefully, if we would really follow this order we could only sleep normally on Sundays, Mondays and Tuesdays. Of course there are times when we have to skip the three-night luxury because we have to finish our projects or assignments.
How's that for a schedule?
Despite its unappealing reality, overnight is one of the greatest things in TN. Overnights does not only allow us to finish our jobs and fulfill our duties but it also allows us to know each one of us better. Its one great bonding moment where anything could just happen. Every overnight is an experience to remember.
Overnights are usually fun-filled nights full of laughter and enjoyment. While working of course. Missing one overnight is like missing half of your life. A lot of things could really happen and not being there could really send a pang of regret to your stomach.
Tiring it may seem but this is one activity in the publication that very few would want to miss. You will hate it at first but it could grow on you and before you know it, you don't want to go home anymore. Who would want to when you could have a fully airconditioned and internet connected slumberland complete with music, television and many other forms of entertainment (provided by the staff of course)?
Honestly, I wouldn't trade overnights for the world's most comfortable bed. Losing sleep is worth it when you are with the people you love and makes you happy.
The NORSUnian, "the official weekly student publication of the Negros ORiental State University System" is one among the four student publications that publishes weekly in the Philippines.
An organization who has been in existence for 26 years now and has underwent several name change since it was established. When it was first established 26 years ago, it was known as The Edutech. Later the name was changed into "The State Scholar" and has stayed with the name until 2004 when the then Central Visayas Polytechnic College has officialy become Negros Oriental State Univeristy.
Though the name was orginally The NORSUnian Tribune, the publication name was officially changed into THe NORSUnian months after TNT was adopted.
BUT ALL THESE FACTS DOES NOT DESCRIBE WHAT THE PUBLICATION REALLY IS. Or at least, what the publication is for me.
The NORSUnian is more than an organization for people like me who has been with the publication all my college life. It has become a family for us who are far away from home.
Joining the student publication has changed my life.
They say that lives of campus journalists are a lot different from the lives of ordinary students. I think, this is an understatement. I could never really describe how different my life is from those of students whose only focus is their studies. I could never describe how hard, fulfilling and depressing our lives can be.
In my first year in the publication I had already experienced all kinds of abuse. Physical, mental, psychological, emotional, and yes even sexual. A fact that all of us in the publication has accepted as part of our lives. Irregular it may be but we had learned to integrate these irregularities in our daily lives.
We are constantly being threatened and criticized by our teachers and administrators. Yes, we are sometimes looked up to by other students but there are also those who detest our very existence. A lot of them thinks that we can solve their every problem and answer their every question which we could certainly not.
Our grades are also in constant danger and not just our lives. We side with the students and publish something mentioning a teacher and there goes our grades. Our academic lives are sometimes put in jeopardy just to fulfill our duties as campus journalists.
But of course, very few believes so.
But we don't care of they believe or not. That, is also a part of our lives.
An organization who has been in existence for 26 years now and has underwent several name change since it was established. When it was first established 26 years ago, it was known as The Edutech. Later the name was changed into "The State Scholar" and has stayed with the name until 2004 when the then Central Visayas Polytechnic College has officialy become Negros Oriental State Univeristy.
Though the name was orginally The NORSUnian Tribune, the publication name was officially changed into THe NORSUnian months after TNT was adopted.
BUT ALL THESE FACTS DOES NOT DESCRIBE WHAT THE PUBLICATION REALLY IS. Or at least, what the publication is for me.
The NORSUnian is more than an organization for people like me who has been with the publication all my college life. It has become a family for us who are far away from home.
Joining the student publication has changed my life.
They say that lives of campus journalists are a lot different from the lives of ordinary students. I think, this is an understatement. I could never really describe how different my life is from those of students whose only focus is their studies. I could never describe how hard, fulfilling and depressing our lives can be.
In my first year in the publication I had already experienced all kinds of abuse. Physical, mental, psychological, emotional, and yes even sexual. A fact that all of us in the publication has accepted as part of our lives. Irregular it may be but we had learned to integrate these irregularities in our daily lives.
We are constantly being threatened and criticized by our teachers and administrators. Yes, we are sometimes looked up to by other students but there are also those who detest our very existence. A lot of them thinks that we can solve their every problem and answer their every question which we could certainly not.
Our grades are also in constant danger and not just our lives. We side with the students and publish something mentioning a teacher and there goes our grades. Our academic lives are sometimes put in jeopardy just to fulfill our duties as campus journalists.
But of course, very few believes so.
But we don't care of they believe or not. That, is also a part of our lives.
It has been almost a year since I became a News Editor for the weekly Student Publication. Almost a year and I am still not used to the idea of being one.
To be honest about it, I don't like this job. I still prefer doing the interviews and scouting for news than sitting in front of the computer and editing. I feel useless in this job.
Barely months after I officially started my "duties", I started to lose interest in the job (which, thinking about it, I am not really interested in in the first place). But I tried to keep on doing my duties. I tried to do the best that I could for the publication. And yet, I could feel that all these are not enough.
It has been almost a year when the staff voted for me to be in this position. Almost a year and I am now desperate to leave it.
Why?
Because I feel so useless, so utterly useless, in here.
I don't think that the authority that my position has given me was ever respected. Nobody really follows what I tell them to do and no amount of reprimand has ever changed them. We have at least 14 reporters in the publication and none of them seemed to realize the importance of what is being asked of them.
I am disappointed. Very disappointed.
As I was reading the previous posts in my other blog, I realized that I finally need to create a new blog which will contain the ups and downs of my publication life. Why? Because my other blog is already littered with my angst and gripes as a campus journalist. Besides, my life in the publication is an important one and I think it deserves a special attention of its own.
I guess what people would expect from this blog is a serious (and not-so serious) reflection of my life as a writer, a campus journalist, and an editor. This will serve as a memoir of a life that I had learned to love and hate. This will be my breathing space.
To be honest about it, I don't like this job. I still prefer doing the interviews and scouting for news than sitting in front of the computer and editing. I feel useless in this job.
Barely months after I officially started my "duties", I started to lose interest in the job (which, thinking about it, I am not really interested in in the first place). But I tried to keep on doing my duties. I tried to do the best that I could for the publication. And yet, I could feel that all these are not enough.
It has been almost a year when the staff voted for me to be in this position. Almost a year and I am now desperate to leave it.
Why?
Because I feel so useless, so utterly useless, in here.
I don't think that the authority that my position has given me was ever respected. Nobody really follows what I tell them to do and no amount of reprimand has ever changed them. We have at least 14 reporters in the publication and none of them seemed to realize the importance of what is being asked of them.
I am disappointed. Very disappointed.
As I was reading the previous posts in my other blog, I realized that I finally need to create a new blog which will contain the ups and downs of my publication life. Why? Because my other blog is already littered with my angst and gripes as a campus journalist. Besides, my life in the publication is an important one and I think it deserves a special attention of its own.
I guess what people would expect from this blog is a serious (and not-so serious) reflection of my life as a writer, a campus journalist, and an editor. This will serve as a memoir of a life that I had learned to love and hate. This will be my breathing space.
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